Hellzapoppin No More
Just read Serene's bloggie. Am damned envious that she and Lennie are actually done with their choreo and are gonna compete. How I wish I could join them and have a go at it too. All along I wanted to do something about this competition. To have a feel of what it's like when everyone's watching you and coming up with the goods when it matters most. Most importantly, knowing what I can do and what I can't do.

As much as I hate to admit it... I am still affected by the decision. But what to do right? It's just not meant to happen I guess. The gears are not clickin... But still the 2 short meetings to fix up whatever choreo we had were still a great learning experience for me. There's so much for to be learnt... Guess all that will have to wait for another time now.

Anyway, I didn't want to take part so that I could win another free SEA Jam tix. Hell no... I just wanted to have fun and experience how it would be like in a competition. Now it seems like the fun has disappeared and it's kinda left a gaping hole in me that can't be sealed till next year maybe? I dunno man. That's the problem with me I guess. I'm always so emotionally charged by the things that I do. Can't really help it as I'm just being true to myself. I'm a feeler. It'll show if I'm unhappy, even if I try my darnest to conceal it.

Oh well... Get on with things Charles. There's still a lot more that's coming on in life. This is nothing but a little pot-hole on the long and winding road. Will fulfill my Lindy Hopping goals eventually... Before all that passion in me burns out.